he makes it so hard 4 me to b mad at him....hell kiss me or say something he knows i will like and then i forget im mad....now i bring to his attetion im upset and y im upset...what does he do? he responds by posting something about me and saying something sweeet....is it appreciated? hell yea..but thats not what im looking for...then it goes to he accepts the relatiopnship status thing but then HIDES IT!!!!!!!!!! that defeats the whole purpose!!! i just told him that anything having to do with me on his page he deletes or hides!!just like he did stephs comment about me, just like the one post he did tag me in he deleted, just like majority of the statues steph has posted on his page n they have something to do with me he deltes.. im mad because sum trick is on there and hes broadcasting her to the world and not me
i mean am i ugly? is he ashamed of me?? does he not want ppl to know?? or is it the fact that he doesnt want females to know?? im so confused!!! i know he loves me i know he cares, i know he sees this as an unimportant issue but to me its not!! i feel like the ugly duckling or cinderella or something...the other ducks or the sisters get the attetion and i dont, i must be hid away 4rm the world in the basement ya kno....
i dont think he understands that this cuts me...but what can i do?? do i continue to play "hidden secert" role, do i try n demand to be seen? idk only time will tell..i just know that i honestly wish i could just do it myself, then i would b happy....like really though?? how does it feel to him if i have sum nigga on my page and im claiming him but im not claiming the dude i love?? a little funny huh??
UGHHHHHHH hopefully i can go to sleep and feel better in the morning, even if i do, it will still come back to me in the morning when i see my page w/o him on it or see his page w/o me on it but sum trick on it....can we say feelings hurt? can we say tears?? i havent cried in such a long time!!
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