janurary 11, 2011

Where to start? I guess ill have to start from yesterday..

this girl who he is "bestfriends" with but lost contact with, he got back in contact with which is all fine and dandy...but he then goes on to add her on his page and label her as his bestfriend, now this wouldnt be a big deal but considering the fact the last time i sent him a relationship thing, he accepted but hid it so no1 could see it, but then just puts this out in the open like that pisses me off

working on not holding things in and approaching him with this type of stuff in a calm manner, which is what i i did, he goes on to say that he sent me a request, ok cool, atleast thats what im thinking and im no longer upset, but then when i go to accept low and behold ITS NOT THERE! so now im pretty much livid at this point, it was one thing to put some trick on your page before me, but its another thing for you to tell me something and lie to me about it! i mean did he really think that that i wasnt going to check and see if it was there??

then i thought okay let me be rashional, maybe he did send it and something just went wrong...so i sent him one instead, did he accept it? NOPE! then i was like well maybe hes not on BUT hes talking to other people so yes he is on! now when i confrnted him about not sending it all he did was change the subject! that means u knew u were lying!!!!!!

why is it so hard to put it out there?? but u real quick to put sumbody else up there??? he knows i take pride in my facebook cause i like to think it shows ppl my family friends wat im all about...now how does that look u got sum girl as ur bf up there but not me?? to me that is equivalent to me n him n a friend of mine walking into a party and i see ppl i know and i introduce them to the friend i brought with me and not him and just leave him in the cold...but i dont think he sees it like that at all

writing is making me feel better and im not going to throw a fit about it, cause weve been good for a few months now, and im not going to mess that up, but everytime i see his page im going to HER and not me and get mad all over again!! something i gotta deal with the fact hed rather advertise other people and not me? i wonder if that means he just is like...idk whatever ill be fine

 missed work today AGAIN i love that job and i think im on the verge of getting fired! then i walk to my other job i dont like so much and turns out i dont have to be there!!!! so my hands freezing, me twisting my ankle and getting approaced by lames was a waste of time!! and it could have been avoided if they just would have called!!!!!!

i guess thats all for today = )